I’ve posted about a lot of non-scale victories (NSVs), but today is a scale-related victory. I am now at the same weight I was when I graduated college, almost 39 years ago. And I’m officially down 90 pounds since the start of my journey.
Visibility
As an adult I went from being fat to being super fat. The difference in visibility is that while I was fat, people noticed, but it wasn’t crazy. When I became super fat, I started getting stared at, first by children, then by adults. Generally the adults looked at me with disgust, or at least disdain, in their faces. I was constantly aware of being super fat, putting up barriers to the negative emotions hurled at me and trying to brush off the stares (and occasional comments) as if they meant nothing, even though each one hurt.
I am no longer super fat, although I am still fat. I really notice the difference in how I am perceived in the world. I don’t get stared at in that in the same way. I don’t get those negatives. I am mostly just ignored. It’s such a relief to blend in. I don’t really, because I’m still fat, but the almost 90 lbs I’ve lost have made a world of difference in my stress level.
I just wish this society wasn’t so fat-hating. I wish it didn’t make so much of a difference.
The next time you notice a fat person, especially a fat woman, please smile in recognition that they are likely struggling.
Diabetes meds – less and less
Another evolving non-scale victory: I have not had to take my diabetes pills (metformin) for 3 weeks. (I take it based on my fasting blood sugar.) I’ve had to take a few doses of my nighttime insulin during that time, but I’m pleased so far.
Leather Pants!
I’ve never owned a pair of leather pants because I could never find a pair big enough for me. Today Rio was cleaning out some piles of donations, and came across a pair that looked like it might fit me, so I tried it on just for fun. It fit! I expect (hope!) they won’t fit in a while, but for now it’s pretty cool!
Walking!
I walked about 1/2 mile today, and climbed 2 flights of steps. This may not seem like a lot, but for someone who, until this year, had to get on a mobility scooter to even walk into a store, this is amazing. Oh, and never got out of breath. I guess I need to walk faster next time!
Staying the Course
No posts in a while because it feels like my journey is just going along. I’m just inching along weight-wise, but every day my back is a little better and I can do a little more. Trying to be patient…
Stall seems to be over
Down 3 lbs in the last week or so.
I keep saying that weight is not the major indicator for me, but it’s nice to see the scale move again.
Sometimes it’s the little things…
I just went to have blood work, and in our lab there’s this little padded shelf that swings down in front of you that you place your arm on to make it easier for the phlebotomist. In the past, that little shelf hit my belly, and it was really horrible. Today I had several inches between my belly and a little shelf. Another NSV!
Size change but no weight change
In the last 3 weeks I’ve gone down 1/2 size, but lost zero weight. Weird.
When I posted on FB in a bariatric group,. I got a lot of validation that this is common, and not to stress about it. I’m trying, but it’s hard.
It Fits!
Got this as a gift. I was pretty sure the top would fit, but not the bottoms. But it all fits! OMG! I haven’t fit it in this size since I was in college. Wow!
